[extropy-chat] Death

[Samantha Atkins]

Thanks to all of you.  Your words on and off list help a lot.  I am
very grateful.

-s


On 6/14/05, kevinfreels.com <kevin at kevinfreels.com> wrote:
> As much as we may disagree on many things,  this one we do not.
> Life is precious. Yet too many brush death off as a "passing" or "moving
> on". It is the strength of people such as yourself that will one day
> eliminate the necessity of death. Your work toward that end will be even
> greater with your experience. Never think that his life served no purpose.
> His presence touched you and through you, everyone you have touched. I wish
> you the best.
> 
> ----- Original Message -----
> From: "Samantha Atkins" <sjatkins at mac.com>
> To: "ExI chat list" <extropy-chat at lists.extropy.org>
> Sent: Tuesday, June 14, 2005 2:50 PM
> Subject: [extropy-chat] Death
> 
> 
> > Some of you know that I have been caregiver to my long term friend
> > and roommate Michael who was terminally ill.  This morning he died.
> > I refuse to use the euphemisms like "he passed on" or "made his
> > transition" or any other such well-meaning clap-trap that seems so
> > goddamned empty right now.  One moment he was there, working so hard
> > simply to breathe, the next minute he wasn't and the long struggle
> > was over.  A moment before he answered some meaningless question I
> > asked.  A moment later - nothing.
> >
> > You know I have believed a lot of spiritual teachings in my life.  I
> > have experienced many things I can't easily explain away from the
> > materialistic scientific side.  Most of the beliefs I got over.  But
> > I still thought I would feel something, experience something when
> > Michael died - some touch of his "essence" saying goodbye,
> > something.  For what little that seems worth right now I always felt
> > most "psychically linked" to Michael.  We were very close.  I almost
> > married the guy twice.  But I felt nothing.  No jolt of energy in his
> > body at the end, nothing - nothing in the hours since, excepting
> > waves of grief and sadness alternating with feeling numb.  It was
> > like a switch simply turned off.
> >
> > Don't mind me.  I will be ok.  I am sorry to lay this out there as I
> > know many may be uncomfortable or feel I am laying something too
> > personal on their heads unfairly.  I am simply processing.  I have no
> > idea if it is right or wrong to write this or post it.  I don't
> > really care.  For a while now I will simply do what I do.
> >
> > - samantha
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